when someone walks away from you but you feel you will be with them again and forever, should you keep fighting and never lose hope? Or should you admit defeat and simply stop, still hoping it will happen? it's so unclear.
To be honest, I don’t know the proper way to answer this question—I’ve taken both approaches at this point in my life. So, I’ll answer it from my own perspective and let you do what you will. Regardless of my response, I know you’ll follow your heart and do what you feel is right for you. That’s how love overcomes us.
On one hand, I would say that love is worth the fight. I think to love something with your whole being and to fight for it with all you are and all you have is a beautiful thing. I would never discourage anyone from this as I know you will learn your capacity for love and you will find great courage in pursuing something with sincere passion. You will discover the world within you and that is something no one can take from you. Regardless of the outcome, you will know your strength.
On the contrary, if you know you’re ready for a fight and you are ready to bleed, to sweat, to cry for this love but the struggle is to be your own to bear—you need to realize that you must put your fists down, straighten your brow, and unclench your jaw. If someone is not willing to put forth the same effort as you to keep you theirs, you do not need to fight for them. The second you realize that you need to prove something to anyone—especially your beloved—you need to have the strength to walk away. I know that is easier said than done, but if you have the tenacity to put up a fight, you have the same strength to remove yourself from a situation that strictly serves someone else and their needs. Regardless of the outcome, you will gain more than what you perceived to be lost.
There is no “defeat” in knowing that despite your best efforts someone refused the good in you—you are not accountable for that or their actions.
There is no “defeat” in knowing that you were sincere, honest, and loving in everything you did for this person and they still walked away from you—you are not accountable for that or their actions.
And lastly, there is no “defeat” in recognizing that you deserve someone who acknowledges your great worth because all you can be held accountable for in life are your actions and words and what you accept. Expect nothing less than what you deserve and accept nothing less.
Love is not about “victory” and “defeat”, those concepts are conclusions to games and matches. This is your heart on the line here, it’s not a game.
Have you ever just looked at someone and thought, “I really love you”. They’re just talking or humming or watching a movie or reading a book or laughing or something, and there’s something about them in that moment—their body is alive, there’s a light in their eyes, something—that makes you think, “I just really love you.”
While I don’t mind your asking, I will assert that I cannot be brought down to prescriptive adjectives and nouns in regards to describing my identity and person.
I do not claim an “orientation” at this point in my life and I do not foresee a time or place in which I will. In my life, I have found that my attraction to another is neither encouraged nor deterred by their gender, sex, and/or outward expression of the like.I am Karina Soriano and I love.
When you’ve been in your pajamas all day and someone comes over thinking they’re some funny motherfucker and goes, “I’m glad you got ready today!”
And you’re just like, “Ha! I’m about ready to kick your ass out my damn house, bitch.”